“I love sleep. My life has the tendency to fall apart when I'm awake, you know?”
― Ernest Hemingway

 Today is my dad's 53 birthday, i feel like wanna tell everyone about him.

Well, this is quite unimportant, and too sentimental. But this is my personal blog anyway.

And i just realize that people is just like "who cares" and that's all my prolog.

I'm not close to him, i mean i never tell him about my crush, or hang out somewhere just two of us, and even a once a week phonecall with him. He never ask me how was my day and so I. And I envy those hugs my friends have with their fathers. I never get him to tell my sisters and I how he met my mom. I also never have him singing in my lifetime if you could imagine. I even never get into conflict (except those ridiculous cases in junior high) with him because we don't do a thing. We just talk about schools, foods, some unfunny jokes, family and relatives, TV shows, and other boring topics you would talk about with a stranger rather than the man who has been with you since you bloom in your mama's uterus.

It's not that we don't care for each other. I know it exactly, because in some cases, i am his daughter, and i posses his lack-of-expressing-feeling-ability gene somehow. I know it. 

When i'm younger and still home, i realize my dad is the one reminds my mom to call my sister who was in college out of town. 

When my mom gave me pocket money, he is the one who always gives me addition. Haha.

When i have to make any important decision, he never ever ever force me to do as he wants.

Up until know, he is the one who drives his spoiled princess-wannabe everywhere. 

(And even my mom passed away after he drop her off once. So you see that..)

So it's very hard for us when my mom left.

Fortunately my sisters' lack-of-expressing-feeling-ability is not that bad as mine and my dad's.

They call and text him twice a day. (Ok, I've tried though my dad  replied my text with that "Y" letter.)

And they can cook foods for him. *white flag*

But now i'm trying to get used to it.

So fellas, expressing your feeling to your parents when they're with you is awkward.

But better awkward than regret just so you know.

Papa love your princess so that she will find loving princes familiar
Papa cry for your princess so that she will find gentle princes familiar

Papa listen to your princess so that she will find attentive princes familiar
Papa hear your princess so that she will find curious princes familiar

Papa laugh with your princess so that she will find funny princes familiar
Papa respect your princess so that she will find respectful princes familiar

Please be strangely enigmatic

Please be just like my

(Princes familiar -Alanis Morisette)